The Wallpaper of My Heart

I woke up thinking "Why me? What did I do to deserve this?" but then I remembered that no one asks to meet their fate. Ever since last October, my life has been a blur. A stressful, surreal blur. I thought I knew exactly how I wanted to live my life and what I was going to do to get to my happy ending. But then, in the blink of an eye, things changed. I wasn't that perfect spoiled little girl. It had hit me. Life had hit me, and it hit me hard. Now, I'm not usually one to cry in front of people or get upset easily. But when she told me what happened, I couldn't help myself. I broke down for the first time. Suddenly, all I could hear was people talking, talking and I couldn't understand anything they were saying. I didn't want this to be my fate. It wasn't part of my plan. But for me, plans were changed. I had officially lost part of me. It felt like someone had cut me so deep that I couldn't help but scream out in agony. All I wanted was for the pain to stop, for someone to take the pain away. I had never pictured my life like this; like the one you see and think "oh that's so sad" but continue living a perfect life. I wasn't supposed to be that person. That girl. I wasn't supposed to have that family. That life. But then I realized something: God put this obstacle in my life to make me stronger. Though I was already strong, he was trying to tell me that I needed to be stronger and more confident. I knew he wouldn't give me something that I couldn't handle, so I accepted his challenge. I looked up to the sky and said "I accept your challenge, Father."