Don't you hate that feeling when you feel like nothing in your life is going right? Well I've had that feeling for about 6 weeks or so now. It's that hate-getting-out-of-bed, why-bother-trying, hate-my-life type feeling. Now most teenagers say this is generally how their personality is, but I'm usually not one to be depressed or get sad easily. I figured there must be something wrong with me if someone like me is depressed for this long...
I guess it all goes back to this summer; my 16th summer of 2011. I thought this was going to be the best summer ever. I had lots of stuff planned with my friends and even Camp Undignified in July. The summer started off pretty great; I went out with friends, stayed up late and played tennis all the time. Then I started dating my ex again. I thought this was going to be OUR summer, OUR fun, OUR time together. After only 2 weeks, he broke up with me and I was destroyed. I guess that's it. That's what started this whole depression. I thought he was going to be the one. It's stupid, I know, but we genuinely loved each other and we were so excited to be back together. After we broke up, I felt horrible, like my world had come crashing down yet again and it was all my fault. I figured going to Camp Undignified would help me get over it, and it did. I went there and I was on fire for God the whole time and I learned so much. I was amazingly happy the next few weeks I came back. Then the fire started to wear off and I was getting back to what seemed like the "boring normal life". A month later school started and I wasn't exactly ecstatic for that...what teenager would be?! Ever since school started, it's been one disaster after another. It seems like there's something everyday that happens to me that makes my life worse. Between trying to survive AP classes, losing great friends, avoiding annoying, stuck-up mean girls, and keeping a healthy relationship with God, my life has been an emotional rollercoaster. I just keep wondering, Where Did I Go Wrong?
