Easter Revelation

So it's Easter again which means that it's been another year full of heartbreak, new and lost friends, and growing toward Jesus. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining here and this isn't going to be one of those annoying "OMG. I hate my life because of blah, blah, blah..." posts; I've just had a lot on my heart lately and I need to let it out in a healthy way. I'm going to list these in confessions to make it more understandable. So, buckle up, pop some corn, and enjoy the post!

Confession #1: Despite what most people may think and it may be a little cliche, but [I hate going to school.] I don't like going to a building full of people I can't stand and being with teachers that don't like students for 7 hours every day. I love gaining knowledge, but I don't like school. Still, despite this, I would spend all my time at school if I could....

Confession #2: Even though I tell my friends that it's not that important, [I really want a boyfriend.] Okay, so it sounds really stupid, but I miss having someone to tell me that I'm beautiful. I miss someone staying on the phone with me until 2 AM. I miss having someone to tell absolutely everything to. I miss someone loving me for who I am, but most of all, I miss someone that I can love. I've had a messed up love life for a while now and I've been trying to figure it out. I've been thinking about who or even what I want. Do I go for the guy that everyone loves and is a sweetheart or do I go for my gorgeous best guy friend that no one can have? Do I pick the sporty sweet-talker or go back to my ex?! Or, do I go for the guy that everyone hates? The one that has let tons of girls on but never falls for them. The one that isn't even that good-looking and really doesn't have much going for him. The one that has my heart. The one that I think about first thing in the morning and last thing before I go to sleep. The one that makes my heart skip a beat merely by his presence. The one that makes me want to punch him and kiss him at the same time. What do I do? But, still, despite all this, I would stay single....

Confession #3: [I hate that I'm not rich.] Maybe, not necessarily rich, but better off with money. Seriously, it annoys me. It gets on my nerves that I always have to think about money before I buy something or go somewhere. I hate that I can't afford some of the nicer things that my friends have and to go on nice vacations. It really gets to me and sometimes I feel like lesser of a person because of it. Still, despite this, I would give away every cent to my name...

Confession #4: Even though it's impossible, [I hate that I'm not perfect.] I hate that I constantly make mistakes and screw almost everything up. I've lost friends, I've ruined relationships, and damaged valuable friendships. I've even disappointed my mother and that really upsets me. Still, despite this, I wouldn't stop being my clumsy, imperfect self....

Enough confessions. At this point you may be wondering: what the heck is this girl talking about? She is making no sense whatsoever. What I'm talking about is today. April 8, 2012. Also known as Easter Sunday. Easter is a holiday that signifies the Ressurection of Jesus 2,000 years ago. He never sinned, but suffered as if he did when he died a horrible death on the cross. On the Third Day, he rose from death and came back so that we wouldn't suffer the same type of death for sinning. These confessions can either mean everything to you or it can mean nothing. If you, like me, have Jesus in youre heart, these confessions mean nothing. I take all of my imperfections and throw them out the window. Why? Because in my 16 years I've learned to take the chances that you won't get again: tell someone you love them and don't think twice; go to college and become a clown or a tree surgeon or whatever (do what makes you happy); forget what people say and make your own rules; reach for the moon and see where it gets you; don't be afraid to be who you are. Take advantage of every opportunity because, unlike Jesus, we don't have second chances to have an impact on the world. Jesus gave us each a chance to leave a lasting influence on the world and we can take or leave it. Today, although I'm sitting alone in my room writing this blog post, I realize that I am truly blessed and I will change the world and have a power over people even after I'm gone.

Now, everyday God gives us each 86,400 seconds to do something spectacular. What will you do with yours?