You Were Everything I Always Needed

Do you ever look at happy couples and think "I want that someday"? Well I remember when I would walk down the hallways at school and think "I do have that, right now". That's right, I had a boyfriend that gave you that funny feeling inside; the feeling that you thought would never go away. He and I were "so in love" as some would say. We were crazy about each other, but we went to different schools--schools that were about 40 minutes apart. Although we were far apart, our relationship was still very strong. When we were together, it felt like nothing could come between us, like we were invincible. His touch was enough to make me melt. When he would hug me, I felt like the most special girl in the world. He meant the world to me because he was the only one that I could truly talk to about anything. He was the only one that understood me and accepted me for who I was and loved me no matter what. But then, a tragedy hit: we broke up. I was destroyed inside. I had lost my boyfriend. I had lost the person I could tell anything to. I lost my best friend.

A few months later, we begin to make contact again. It was weird to see his name show up on my phone because I thought that he hated me because of our break up. He seemed really nice, like he wanted to be friends, but then when I would text him he seemed distant; like I was annoying him or he was mad at me. All I was trying to do was repair our friendship, maybe even with the hope a rekindling a spark. He may not like me anymore, but I thought the least we could be is friends. Now, whenever I see his name on my phone, all I can think about is everything that we once had. It's enought to make me cry. It reminds me that I lost one of the most important people to me. I lost my best friend. Although he probably won't read this, I want him to know that I still love him now as much as I did when we were dating and I would do anything to regain our "friendship."